Initially, this was going to be a VERY long-winded ramble about opinions, having to defend them all the time, overplay, the fact that sometimes stating my opinions on multiple pages can end up conveying the same thing, and even the fact that this blog kind of started out of boredom and not really having anything else to do one weekend and trying to find interest in something else. Not to mention how I feel like it's kind of turned me into a prick and how I say things that I feel aren't necessary. It was proving really hard for me to find the right way to put it.
Instead I'll just leave you guys with this: please understand, people, it's not that I don't like (talking about) pop music, I don't like blogging, or that I'm sick of listening to Hits 1 and their countdown. Or that it has anything to do with the music that has been released this year or last year. Nothing like that at all. But this all feels like a lot of high maintenance, and being associated with all these people can feel supportive, but at the same time it's very draining, and there's a part of me that has wanted to go on hiatus for some time now. As I said, this takes a lot out of me in more ways than one, not only with how much goes into every week, but because of all the negativity that goes around in this community, and how I can never think of anything new.
I've felt like this has been coming for a while now, ever since November when I was late on one of the updates. And then certain things happened and they took up quite a bit of my free time late last year and early this year, and I have been growing (back) into other things, not to mention how I need to work towards getting a proper full-time job along with that. Back when I was waking up at 6 AM to get my posts out before anyone else, it was kind of cool, but at the same time it was draining and that I feel like I forced myself to do, which I feel like is part of what's made it harder for me to enjoy this.
But that brings me to the big question: am I quitting this for good? I'll say this definitively: I hope that won't be the case. Because if it does end up being the end, I'll be more upset about it than any of you. Maybe after not doing it for a while I'll feel motivated again. But I really can't make any promises for anything. I'll still hang out on Adrian's page and of course I'll read others', too.
Please know, right now I'm just doing this for myself. I know that some of you will be disappointed, but trust me, I am too, and again, I'll be even more so if I do say goodbye for good. Thanks for understanding, everyone, and stay awesome.